The snow began wet, heavy snow that caused branches to shake themselves of the heavy coat you were supposed to come and ground me once again as you always do but the storm tracked exactly where you needed to travel before you and held you at bay this all came to me as i stood in a century- old theatre surrounded by people i didn't know and music drifted from the mouth of a hapless artisit whom, of course, sang lyrics that connected of drifting days with you guiding my path and you were here after all and the snow continued to fall with power lines snapping and balls of snow collecting on the roof and gravity sends them cascading with a thump and a jump from me like a cat being startled by energy in a room and there you were.
how wonderful it is to be surprised the skies opened up last night thunder booming lightning flashing and the rain came down in a torrent the harvest moon showing brightly and i ran through it clothes drenched and weighing heavy as i sat on the kitchen floor and my heart smiled.
it is not uncommon, on days such as these especially, to hear a child practing their instruments outside. Having taxed their families with squeeky scales. But the day was oddly gorgeous in it's unseasonably warm tempertures and leaves twinkling oranges, reds, yellows. So, to hear Take Five drifting on those warm drafts made my heart soar.
There you are- sitting on your wall- not expecting that the world that so comfortably caressed you would suddenly take different turns. The souls around you that have nourished you, your well being, your love, have all shifted. And you are left with the terrifying thought of, perhaps, this time, it can't be put back together again.
He said, "Look at the lotus blossoms in the distance. All along the horizon." And I caught their shimmering in my eyesight as I turned myself around; from floating on my back, in spring filled velvet, as the summer's sun warmed my bones. "They look like a city glimmering in the night," he said. And they did.
What an opportunity it is to see change. Up until now i had just become awash in it. This time i was afforded the chance to see it as it unfolded. I still am in that. The exciting bit of it all is to see where it will lead.
The spring was a glorious one. Warm weather lingered. And rain brought lush green. And everything was singing. What a perfect prelude to summer's welcoming. How curiuos it is that when one is redirected the discoveries, which lied there all along, open themselves up to refreshed eyes. And your heart soars. And a fresh breeze awakens silent happiness.
You fit in the palm of my hand and always wiggled your little butt You first were nicknamed lil' bean burrito And soon would be known as Ms G or G girl or simply G You filled so many hearts with your gentle spirit Such a sweet girl You will be missed But time comes Legs no longer working You embarass with each accident You spasm at night And breath is weakened And you are tired So tired Be well my gentle little spirit Thanks for the lessons and the love.
Somewhere in between searching as to how I was going to hold on and continue and grow a caring soul stepped in and said he was willing to help me find the way. And he has. And spring pronounced herself in dripping snow, and chirping birds, and promise.
The world has seemed off kilter lately. Cascading into change. I notice the intensity of the sun gaining momentum. And realize it is just resetting itself. That, while in the midst of Greta struggeling to gain her footing, and friends facing new beginnings and finding it hard to see that the past needs to be left behind; myself included, that there is always a place for resilience. Accupuncture will deliver footsteps, and friend's laughter will always make one full, and the beauty of sharing that energy awakens said resilience. To move forward. To awaken refreshed. To journey.
There are dwarf daffodils, forced to bud, blooming on my kitchen table. They are the first thing I see when I come home. They make me smile. Meanwhile, the world spins in a peculiar way. I find my balance uneasy these days. Passions cut, earthquakes shaking beings to the core, and an unsteady ground beneath us all opens up. I look outside and notice rain falling and freezing on weather worn pavement and worry about my footing. The daffodils fill the kithen with their heady scent. Their yellow faces beaming.